just ask, please and thank you (:

It's been on my mind lately and I just can't seem to ignore it. So you think I talk shit about you ? I honestly don't know why you would think that. I'm sorry that I make it seem as if I give you cut eye, but common I swear we talked about it, I have reeaally bad vision. Waaitt.. why am I explaining myself, why am I apologizing? I'm tired of always being the one to apologize. Just hearing that you think I talk shit is surprising to me. Never once did I ever think that you talked shit. To think of it I never thought you talked about me negatively or positively at all. Ever thought that the reason I dont talk to you as often as my friends do is just cause I'll find it extremely awkward , its not cause I hate you. Yes, i do talk about you but I can say that when I do talk about you it's cause I either defend you or say nothing but good things about you. You can't just assume that I talk about you in that way.

You know, I really wanted to be able to talk to you again before. But now, I think I've lost that desire to want to. It's not only because I hear things, it also has to do with me knowing that if I dont talk to you as much, there won't be anything for anyone to talk about. And because you think that of me, that's what gave me the push to keep my distance from you. All of this made me realize that maybe you never really knew me or maybe I just never really knew you.